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[harimaya]

Who ⬤ Hizen & Various
What ⬤ Closed prompts for July and August
When ⬤ July-August
Where ⬤ Various!
Content Warnings ⬤

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[medicative]

Yes? What's on your mind?

[it'll be easier to answer, and guide him away from the self doubt.]

[harimaya]

While it was raining... I was pretty busy; fought a bunch of people, dragged a lot of people out of trouble. That wasn't a problem.

(It was exhausting and a lot of work but it wasn't anything he wasn't already used to. He handled that part well but he gets to the main issue. He's quiet for a moment. It takes him a while to get the words out of his mouth and he hisses, spitting them like the words are as bitter as they make him feel,)

But I ran into a bunch of people that got hurt. I know a bit... usually it's enough to keep someone alive 'til someone better comes along but... no one came.

(It was just him. He was the only one that could help at the time and help wasn't going to come quickly enough during the crisis. And that was even if it came at all.)

I did what I could but... it wasn't good enough. (And he hates it. It's frustrating. He'd felt so useless. Then seriously, with quiet resolve, ) I wanna be better.

[medicative]

[she nods then, understanding the situation. it's not like the volunteers who just want to pick up some hours or the matter of handing him a first aid kit. helping, being better, is more than that.]

We can work on that, if you like.

[she can train him as an assistant, and give him the basic skills he might be lacking. the oversight, the care - it can be learned, refined, until he's where he wants to be.]

When do you want to start?

[harimaya]

(Ah, that went smoothly. He was afraid she'd insist he was fine or tell him not to worry or something but... no, this is good. This is exactly what he wanted and he replies,)

As soon as possible.

(The sooner he starts, the sooner he can be better.)

[medicative]

All right.

[going to the front desk, she opens a drawer and pulls out a sheet of paper, coming back to him with a pen.]

Fill this out - it's just basic information to contact you with and your availability - and what we'll do is get you set up on the rota to come in for some volunteer shifts. Beyond that, I can add you to the lessons that have already been started for a few, unless you'd prefer to meet privately once a week?

[harimaya]

(He takes the sheet and pen from her. It's like she says... an easy form to fill out. His schedule isn't very consistent given that he works so many odd jobs but he can decide on a time to commit on... a time when he's usually less busy,.)

...

(The idea of taking lessons with others comes with its own stresses. He understands his own ability (he thinks) and it's easy to assume that others are better than him but insecurity and anxiety will just get in his way. If it's to be better then he can swallow his pride and--)

I'll come.

(To the lessons. Even if he's starting behind he'll just work harder to catch up. He's never been afraid of working.)