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jigokulogs2022-06-07 03:56 pm
heretic_blade) wrote in jigokulogs2022-06-07 03:56 pmEntry tags:
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...Ya prolly got other people t' get to. Jus'...leave me here. I'll be alright now.
[ He doesn't want her to go, but he's still under the impression he's not worth her time. Even after everything, he can't find the worth in himself. ]
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[hadn't she said it? "not without you." what kind of person would she be, to leave the man she loves alone in this nightmare? he deserves so much more - even though she's not often this stubborn, the look in her eyes says she's willing to be.]
You either come with me, or I'm staying here.
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...If ya stay here, I might attack ya again. [ If they go, though... ] I need t' get cleaned up or somethin'.
[ Trust. Trust in her. Trust that this will be as alright as it can be given the circumstances. ]
So...Let's get outta here.
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[she'll do her best to stay close to him as well. soon enough, she thinks, there will be a place to duck in and avoid the rain long enough to gather themselves for real, and her thoughts come true with a recently abandoned storefront - the proprietor must have fled when the cursed energy started, because the door's not even all the way closed. mentally, she apologizes, but even places like this should have some sort of bathroom and sink to at least get the blood off their faces.
oh yeah, and she should probably take a look at whatever his talons did to her. that's kind of important.]
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Regardless, he does as he's told and sticks close to her. Now that his frenzy has settled, his wound hurts, so much so that it slows him down. It's fine...
Once they're inside, he nudges her towards the bathroom. ]
Check yerself out first. I'll wash up when yer down.
[ He doesn't want to see what he did to her. ]
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coming back out, she looks him over once, twice - she has suspicions, but she'd need to watch him moving before anything else.]
Your turn.
[see, Izo? it's fine. she fixed it.]
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[ Well...That's considerate of her. He forces a brief smile before going to wash up himself. His pace is deliberately slow and there is a noticeable stiffness in his gait. Izō is just going to pretend to be fine long enough to get himself washed up.
His hair is a lost cause in just a sink, but at least he can scrub his face and arms clean. At least it doesn't stain like the rain in Hakagemachi... ]
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Why didn't you say you were injured?
[let her in. let her see it.]
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Ryouma shot me...It ain't that bad. Ain't like someone's mouth's been on it or anythin'.
[ That's suspicious. ]
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[his weird denials will be addressed later if at all.]
Let me see it.
[she's going to fix it. this is not optional.]
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[ With booze and an inadequate first aid kit, but Emily doesn't need to know that. Izō had also ripped the bandages off at some point so it's not like that did a whole lot of good.
He dries his face and hands before opening up his shirt to show her the wound on his hip. ]
See? It ain't bad...
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[the frown on her face only deepens, and she crouches to inspect it further. he's lucky that it didn't hit anything vital, he'd barely be moving in that case. putting her hand near it, she looks up at him.]
...May I heal you?
[as irritated as she is that he didn't call her - that he was intent on hiding this - she won't do it without his yes.]
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[ At least he's careful to not mention the wound licking again.
As for the question of healing, Izō averts his gaze. On some level, he wants to stay hurt. He wants this as a reminder of what blind trust can do, an indelible mark upon him that he can see and feel. A type of punishment for himself. ]
...No. Leave it alone.
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no magic, then. instead, she pulls back, opening the satchel of first aid equipment that hasn't left her side since this all started.]
...May I at least reduce the pain?
[cover it with new bandages. something. she'll pull out the lecture on infections and the death from them if she has to. but please, let her do something - it feels too wrong to let it fully alone.]
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He nods. ]
Yeah...Go ahead.
[ Because knowing she'd suffer if he said no is not the punishment he's after. Emily doesn't deserve that. ]
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[with his permission, then, she can proceed. to clean it as gently as possible, since if it hasn't been covered it needs that done again. to carefully inject the local anesthetic she has near it, so that things will go numb soon enough, and allow him some relief. to cover it up, even as she wants badly to close it and let him recover that way.]
...You'll need stitches, if you're set on not taking it easy for the next month.
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[ Her concern feels...nice, at least. Genuine. The same sort of feeling he got from Hizen.
He doesn't deserve it. ]
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[she knows he won't go to an actual hospital or anywhere else and do it on his own. he knows she won't speak of this happening to anyone beyond him.]
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[ Fussy. At least he's being a decent patient and not flinching or squirming too much. He trusts her completely...Even if he learned trust can be a dangerous thing. She isn't consumed by the nightmare the way Ryouma was. It's different.
He can trust her not to make this even worse than it already is. ]
...It, uh, it went all th' way through. If that matters at all..
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[it tells her what she'll need to stitch up, and this she knows better than any magic - when it's been long enough to dull his pain down to an annoyance, then she can start her work. careful, steady hands, tiny stitches on the exit wound so that it'll be able to pull itself together. this isn't anything that'll let him off easy - he'll still have to be careful - but he won't be oozing blood by the time she's done, bandages clean and snug, and most importantly, his pain will be even more reduced.]
There...that should hold you for today, as long as you're careful. I can see to changing that often enough, if you'd like.
[it's a beacon of normal in the midst of this bad dream. something she can do, that she understands.]
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[ Which is to say he'd simply forget to change them.
It is easier to function now that the frenzy has subsided and the pain of his wound is numbed. He now has the clarity of mind to question everything and have a hazy recollection of everything he's done tonight.
Not...what he wants right now. ]
Look...we should go. Or ya should. I dunno. Shit's bad right now an' I dunno how long I'm gonna be able t' hold it together.
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[she'll say it over and over, she's not leaving. it'd be like sacrificing him to the horror for what, not even trying to save her own skin. no, this is what he chose when he talked about staying together.]
The leaders are asking everyone to gather in headquarters - whatever's closest, we can go there. I don't mind begging if I have to.
[sort of a lie. she does mind it, but temporary shelter from this haze would be welcome enough that to humble one's pride wasn't so far out of the question.]
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He pulls his shirt closed and shrugs. ]
Well, let's get goin' then...
[ He just has to stay out there long enough for her to get ahead of him. ]
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[she gives him a smile as she tucks everything back in her bag, kissing him on the cheek - they're going to be alright, they'll manage through this. checking on her phone, it looks like they're closest to Mizukume, and that should allow them to catch their breath long enough to try and make contact with the others.
there's a plan now, and she's glad for it. they should be able to make it - his medicine won't wear off that fast. carefully, they can make their way through, and she stays close - it's only when the sidewalk narrows at a point, taken over by some currently unused stall, that she'll move ahead of him, calm and focused on the destination.
she'll be okay. he's right behind her, after all.]
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The moment she breaks from him, it's like he was never there. He activates Presence Concealment and fades away like a shadow in the night. It's easy to distance himself now, to run soundlessly onto a side street and fly up onto the rooftops.
It's not easy to know he just left her behind. It's not easy to know the despair she'll feel when she notices he's not there. ]
Sorry, Em...
[ It's not loud enough to be heard over the rain, especially not from the distance he put between them. It's not enough to make him feel better about what he's doing.
He'll make it up to her once it's safe. ]