(open/event stuff!) a cemetery where i marry the sea

[mindthebass]

Who ⬤ shinichi & you
What ⬤ event + one aftermath!
When ⬤ during tanabata and a week after.
Where ⬤ festival + a small ass bar.
Content Warnings ⬤ lmao so many. let's go. violence, underage sex work mentions, underage drinking, underage smoking, underage drug use, death, shock, trauma, etc.

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cw underage drug use

[mindthebass]

(he's so out of it. a joint to finish the night hanging from his lips, calm the heart that worked overtime with all the uppers he has taken. he was fine, enjoying the muffled sounds of the bar, the breeze on his face, and

FUCK

THAT VOICE.

his first instinct is to hide the stick, like a child who was caught with something they weren't supposed to be doing, right behind his back - until he realizes that he is truly already doomed. the smell is a cloud around him, and he doesn't believe haru to be naive enough not to know.)

... What are you doing here? It's not a place for you!

(shifting the blame, yes. that totally works.)

[empression]

I'm not here to smoke or drink, so in that regard, you're correct.

[ And she is not naive enough to miss the smell that clings to him, even if he had followed through on instinct and tried to hide the joint. She's panting lightly, curls clinging to perspiring skin. She's been running, perhaps. ]

But I'm here for you. And here you are. So I would say I'm exactly where I want to be.

[mindthebass]

And I say you need to go home! I'll go back eventually, just-- let me deal with my shit, alright?

(poorly as he may. he already is barely home, anyway. what difference does it make at this point?)

[empression]

When is "eventually"? Do you absolutely have to deal with your... conflicts alone??

[ Fussers gonna fuss. And also not say "shit". ]

[mindthebass]

Why should I do otherwise?

(and stubborns will be stubborn.)

[empression]

This may be what you're accustomed to, but if you have the opportunity to not struggle through things alone, why wouldn't you do otherwise?

[mindthebass]

Flip the script - why would you want to deal with this in the first place?

[empression]

Because when something terrible happened, I didn't want to deal with it alone and I had to.

[mindthebass]

... Do you mean--

(does she mean that he left her alone when she needed him? or is it an allusion about home?)

[empression]

-- Ah, nothing that's happened here. Truthfully, you've been so supportive with things that I almost feel as though I've been slacking.

[mindthebass]

Me? I'm not that supportive. I think you still think I'm much nicer than I really am.

[empression]

I do think you're much nicer than you insist you really are, yes. But I also don't think I'm wrong.

[mindthebass]

And I think dealing with this is not your job. Go home, Haru-chan. I'll live.

[empression]

Of course it isn't my job.

But I also want to be there for you, Shin-kun. Whether you'll live or be fine, you're obviously not fine right now.

[mindthebass]

... Ok. So what's your plan?

(big fuck it. they're already here. she's already seen it. the joint goes back to his lips, and he takes a drag.)

[empression]

[ It gets a glance but Haru doesn't say anything because Now Is Not The Time. ]

Are you willing to talk about it? Or would you rather I stay quiet?

[mindthebass]

You clearly have something to say. Let's hear it.

[empression]

I'm worried about you. [ simply. ]

It also seems that there's something on your mind.

[mindthebass]

Of course there's something on my mind! A man died in front of me, and it feels like I'm the only one still thinking about it!

[empression]

... I don't think that's true.

I still see it, when I close my eyes.

[mindthebass]

And how are you dealing with it? How are you just going about your day, Haru-chan?

[empression]

...

I'm trying to do what I can. This isn't the first time I've seen someone killed in front of me... but back then, I felt so helpless and overwhelmed, I couldn't make myself do anything for the longest time. I just kept reliving it, over and over again.

[mindthebass]

... I'm selfish, Haru-chan. I should have been there for you, and instead, I'm like this.

[empression]

No. No one ever really knows how they'll react to something like this... and this time, I want to be the one who's there for you.

Is that okay?

[mindthebass]

...

(there's silence. having someone being there for him for his own sake and no other motive is so foreign.)

... Ok. Thank... You.