semi-closed 🔪 the extent of my affections are destroying me

[pitfight]

Who ⬤ Nishitani + various
What ⬤ catchall + subplots
When ⬤ Throughout May
Where ⬤ Shuten territory, Enma housing, the Celestial casino, + more
Content Warnings ⬤ Nishitani CW as always.

If you want smth with this feral dog, hit me up at bussy!

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[medicative]

For one thing, I'd need my own body. My form doesn't exist anymore, not in this or another realm, and I am not departing only to vanish into nothingness. For another, you'd need divine intervention, because dealing with souls is a delicate matter, and very easy to have go wrong when they're as melded as we are.

[that's just the truth. if Hakagemachi had been stabilized, restored some, it might have been possible to gain if not their old forms, then new ones. the bodies they have are as much a safe harbor as they are a possession - cohabitation, not oppression. Hibiki's eyes meet his, and they finish the cup they started earlier.]

But the hardest thing of all to obtain would be the consent of her I share with, to get her willingness to come apart. It benefits both of us to stay together, after all. It is not some miserable, parasitic experience that you're envisioning, but a forged partnership. What could you give her to replace what I already do? A proper answer to that, you might have an easier time finding a way to convince Lord Enma to be your best friend.

[it's a task so farfetched it might as well be impossible, and the look on their face says as much.]

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[ "Not some miserable, parasitic experience" Hibiki says and Nishitani's fingers tighten around his sake cup, just slightly, and he hides it by taking another sip from his sake. Hibiki might say that, think that, believe that, nothing will change the fact when when Nishitani first saw Chigoku, he realized that the yokai have stilted "partnership," with the yokai containing more power-- more sway than what Hibiki says. Chewing over the information gotten, from Chigoku and Hibiki both, Nishitani puts the pieces together. ]

[ The people don't remember what the yokai does when in their bodies-- and the yokai can take the body. Nishitani doesn't know if there's permission or not, but his money is on "not," considering the tension that had been in Majima's shoulders. ]

I don't know if I could give her anything worth your powers. [ Honest, because Nishitani knows that his powers are human-- and what is capable here often requires more than Nishitani's unique brand of determination. ]

But you clearly think I'm stupid, Hibiki-san. I'm sure Emily-chan wouldn't like to find out you've been joyriding in her body. You have to get permission or are you just rebelling a little?

[medicative]

We have an understanding for moments like this. Besides, she's right here - peacefully asleep, but right here all the same. I could wake her up, if you insisted, and she'd tell you the exact same thing.

[they lift an eyebrow, sharp gaze watching him even closer.]

You're thinking about Majima, aren't you? Looking at me, and seeing him in your mind's eye. Why else would you be so concerned about a woman you barely know?

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[ Nishitani doesn't believe Hibiki for a second, but he's not in a position to refute or refuse until he gets more information, so instead he just shrugs-- a nonresponse, passing off a comment made for making a comment later. ]

[ They bring up Majima and Chigoku, and peer into Nishitani's eyes. And like trained, Nishitani doesn't break eye contact, doesn't flinch, doesn't show weakness or emotion. But what strikes him as funny is: ] You're wrong. Em-chan and I have an agreement, an understanding. I'd protect her with my life and not think twice about it.

[medicative]

Why? You'd be throwing your life away. It'd be the height of foolishness.

[disregarding their host's tendency to tend to every injured fool she finds, they can't say she'd do the same for him.]

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Because when you're human you do stupid things for the people you cherish. [ Nishitani drinks his sake, smokes his cigarette, and looks impossibly calm given the situation. Death has been his companion for years, first with Sara-onee, then with piles and piles more. Death finding him, finding him twice, doesn't scare him. ] And get this: I think Emikko just might agree with me and not you on this matter.

[medicative]

That, I'm well aware of. It is not confined to the race of humanity to let emotions dictate their actions. I only mean it would be a terrible waste, to die so soon, when you hardly have had any chance to leave your mark and act as you please. But go on, do tell her that. See if she's grateful for such a vow, or if she says exactly what I know she will. I can always help you practice.

[and with a breath, they twist their voice back into Emily's own.]

Mr. Nishitani.

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[ Nishitani drinks, because he doesn't care if Emily is grateful-- he was just stating facts. If he dies to save someone, he thinks that would be plenty mark enough. If push came to shove, Nishitani would give up any large, sweeping plans if it meant sparing Majima any grief. ]

[ Nishitani's not selfish enough to think that he could fix Majima's grief if Emily were to die-- so here he is, because he knows Emily would be more equipped to help Majima should anything happen. ]

Emikko. Nice of you to show up.

[medicative]

Remember, this is just pretend, Mr. Nishitani. Don't get terribly excited, as you're wont to do.

[after all, that glimmer in their eyes isn't her. that smile isn't hers, nor the way they hold their body. just the voice. just a small thing to pretend on.]

Now, what was it you wanted to tell me?

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[ Nishitani finishes his drink, puts out his cigarette. They're toying with him, playing with him like a rat. Standing up, Nishitani straightens his suit back out and looks over Hibiki where they sit, pretending. ]

Well, sorry to break up your fun, Hibiki. Break time's over.

[medicative]

[as he wishes, then. they shrug, taking money out of their pocket to pay for the drinks and setting it down on the bar.]

Just keep this in mind while you work. You can't save someone who doesn't wish to be saved. Nor can you even begin without the risk of your heart being broken.

[hopping down from the stool, they give him a wave.]

May our next encounter be even more enlightening.

[and like that, they're gone, away into the night.