<sub>[ There's a brief silence as Akira tries to calm down. He wants to transform and act out and violate the other like his hellish blood tells him to do. Force himself onto him and fuck him over and over so he'll shut up; that's what demons do. They fuck relentlessly, with or without consent. That is a demon's nature and that is the behavior that Akira is cursed with that he has to resist everyday. The other boy is so desperate and so willing, but Akira knows this isn't how Megumi is on a daily basis. It feels so wrong to give him what he thinks he wants. It's not right. It's not how Megumi is, either.

His firm hold remains strong against the other boy, but his gaze softens slightly. He can't help but be honest. It's always been his character. ]</sub>

... I want to, Megumi. But not when you're like this. Not when you aren't yourself. You're under the influence of something that is making you behave differently. I want you to kiss me and touch me because you want to kiss me and touch me, not because a drug is making act that way so you are trying to satisfy something that is out of your control.

And I want you to want me to kiss you and touch you because it's what you want, not something that will just satisfy all of this. This will pass. It will get out of your system. Please control yourself for your own sake or I will get violent.