Well. [That's an weird question. It's a good one, though-- keeps things interesting. He's reminded, warmly, of a friend who liked to mix things up too.]

I'll admit to having trouble relaxing, and I'm not big on crowds, either. So, food aside, I just feel... sort of awkward, doing festival things.

[His own memories of childhood are much, much more bleak. Though he'd been obligated to attend a few festivals in school, the anxiety around wide spaces and crushes of people had been much sharper then-- and he's always been as much of a slightly retiring oddball as he is now. So many of the activities that're being tested and worked on today are things he's never done, much less done and enjoyed-- but now he's an adult, far too old, in his own mind, to be catching a festival goldfish around in a bag. Even if he wants to go have fun, he still feels hesitant about it all. Maybe a bit childish for it, too.]

Does 'used to' mean you don't care for it anymore?