[ because he's completely awkward in a situation like this. he doesn't know where to stand because izō didn't tell him. he's always worried he's going to do something that will affect izō poorly in some way, even if it's ridiculous. it seems ryouma has managed to hurt him at every other opportunity even if he didn't mean to, so it's not a groundless fear. ]
Irreplacable? Sure, he doesn't want me dead, but I'm pretty sure if I never bothered him here again nothin' much would change. I already know I ain't the only person he sleeps with. [ the liquor could be blamed for making him especially crude but it's not like it's a big secret either. ] I'm happy that he's happy, really! That's all I could ask for.
[ really. that's all he feels he's entitled to ask for. his feelings don't matter because he's in so much debt literally and figuratively that he'll take whatever he can get, even if it hurts. ]
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[ because he's completely awkward in a situation like this. he doesn't know where to stand because izō didn't tell him. he's always worried he's going to do something that will affect izō poorly in some way, even if it's ridiculous. it seems ryouma has managed to hurt him at every other opportunity even if he didn't mean to, so it's not a groundless fear. ]
Irreplacable? Sure, he doesn't want me dead, but I'm pretty sure if I never bothered him here again nothin' much would change. I already know I ain't the only person he sleeps with. [ the liquor could be blamed for making him especially crude but it's not like it's a big secret either. ] I'm happy that he's happy, really! That's all I could ask for.
[ really. that's all he feels he's entitled to ask for. his feelings don't matter because he's in so much debt literally and figuratively that he'll take whatever he can get, even if it hurts. ]