[ He hates being seen. The vulnerability of his neuroses being known doesn't feel good. It's a weakness laid bare. At least Andy won't poke at it, but that doesn't make it any better. ]

Yeah...Hardest fuckin' thing I ever done. Dunno how th' fuck I tricked 'em into lovin' a guy like me. [ He scrubs at his face again with a sigh. ] Ever wonder how th' fuck ya got t' this point? ...'S how I feel ev'ry day.

Like all'a this is some kinda fucked up dream an' it'll all come crashin' down when I wake up. Be back at square one...