[ They're more alike than he really wants to admit. He grimaces and immediately contradicts what he just said. ]

I mean, me, too. I'm too stupid t' know any diff'rent. All I can do is fuckin' fight... [ Fuck it, drink and forget this. ] Hell's a damn sight better'n where I came from. Maybe that's why I ain't fightin' it. I jus' wanna fight t' protect what I got...

[ Is that too much to ask? He's actually kind of...happy? in Hell. It doesn't make any sense. ]