[if only those hands were around her neck, it would be easier. there's an acceptance that comes in when you know you're going to die, that no one can save you, a surrender that takes over. it feels like something similar here. she knows Andy won't kill her, but
don't ask her what she wants, because she wants far too much. she wants things to be quiet. wants to stop thinking, to stop having to make decisions for a while. wants to seal up the wounds on everyone she loves so they stop bleeding out in front of her and they aren't in pain. wants to sleep for a week straight. wants to want nothing at all, so she can keep pushing, keep going, keep running and running and running and -
stop looking at her like that. like you can see her. she has to run away, but there's nowhere to run to. that gaze pins her down so that she can't even flinch. there's no air in the room, and this is familiar - crisis, again.
so why isn't she afraid? or maybe she is, and it's so familiar that she barely registers it coming back anymore.]
If you've decided to not care about me, then there's no reason for you to stay. It'd be better for your own sake then, to leave.
[leave her. she wants to work until she bleeds from it, because that makes sense. it's what's needed. she's got to.]
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don't ask her what she wants, because she wants far too much. she wants things to be quiet. wants to stop thinking, to stop having to make decisions for a while. wants to seal up the wounds on everyone she loves so they stop bleeding out in front of her and they aren't in pain. wants to sleep for a week straight. wants to want nothing at all, so she can keep pushing, keep going, keep running and running and running and -
stop looking at her like that. like you can see her. she has to run away, but there's nowhere to run to. that gaze pins her down so that she can't even flinch. there's no air in the room, and this is familiar - crisis, again.
so why isn't she afraid? or maybe she is, and it's so familiar that she barely registers it coming back anymore.]
If you've decided to not care about me, then there's no reason for you to stay. It'd be better for your own sake then, to leave.
[leave her. she wants to work until she bleeds from it, because that makes sense. it's what's needed. she's got to.]