It's little phrases like that that seem to pull him out of his ruminating thoughts, cutting through all the worry and useless introspection and bringing him a sense of ease that isn't usual in Megumi's world. Megumi is a boy with a natural tendency to assume responsibility, to worry for the sake of others as if they wouldn't be able to manage by themselves without his intervention. It's rare he allows himself to relax and feel like something will work out even though he doesn't have a contingency plan for it, that he can simply let something happen - and potentially gain a new experience along the way.
His thoughts travel back to that first time Yuuji had put him at ease like this with a simple 'don't worry'. It had done a lot to dissipate his fretting, taught him that sometimes he could simply put his trust in someone else.
It will still be embarrassing, fraught, awkward and nerve-wrecking, but maybe there's no sense dwelling on the dozen ways it could be difficult, and trust that whatever should happen, they would find a way to make it a good experience for them both. Maybe it's fine to trust Yuuji to take care of him, the same way Yuuji seems to be trusting him to do the same.
When he looks past the anxieties and preconceptions he had about the act, puts all those aside and focuses on the trust that he's placed in his friend, Megumi finds that it's become easier, that he can see how it could even be somewhat pleasant. He's never shared intimacy with another person, spending most of his life with a wall wedged between himself and others, but he remembers that night he slept in Yuuji's bed ... and the other boy was just so warm, his aura that of comfort, welcoming and 'home'.
For a few seconds, Megumi keeps his gaze fixed on Yuuji, eyes widening like he's had a small epiphany, like the other boy has managed to reach him. He then looks down, his tone quiet, pensive but accepting. ]
... Okay. [ It's genuine this time. ] I'll come to you.
[ Though he IS going to ignore that nonsense about turning off the lights. Please do not ruin the moment. ]
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It's little phrases like that that seem to pull him out of his ruminating thoughts, cutting through all the worry and useless introspection and bringing him a sense of ease that isn't usual in Megumi's world. Megumi is a boy with a natural tendency to assume responsibility, to worry for the sake of others as if they wouldn't be able to manage by themselves without his intervention. It's rare he allows himself to relax and feel like something will work out even though he doesn't have a contingency plan for it, that he can simply let something happen - and potentially gain a new experience along the way.
His thoughts travel back to that first time Yuuji had put him at ease like this with a simple 'don't worry'. It had done a lot to dissipate his fretting, taught him that sometimes he could simply put his trust in someone else.
It will still be embarrassing, fraught, awkward and nerve-wrecking, but maybe there's no sense dwelling on the dozen ways it could be difficult, and trust that whatever should happen, they would find a way to make it a good experience for them both. Maybe it's fine to trust Yuuji to take care of him, the same way Yuuji seems to be trusting him to do the same.
When he looks past the anxieties and preconceptions he had about the act, puts all those aside and focuses on the trust that he's placed in his friend, Megumi finds that it's become easier, that he can see how it could even be somewhat pleasant. He's never shared intimacy with another person, spending most of his life with a wall wedged between himself and others, but he remembers that night he slept in Yuuji's bed ... and the other boy was just so warm, his aura that of comfort, welcoming and 'home'.
For a few seconds, Megumi keeps his gaze fixed on Yuuji, eyes widening like he's had a small epiphany, like the other boy has managed to reach him. He then looks down, his tone quiet, pensive but accepting. ]
... Okay. [ It's genuine this time. ] I'll come to you.
[ Though he IS going to ignore that nonsense about turning off the lights. Please do not ruin the moment. ]