[the words she wants, even if they've come with many others. when she's done here, when she's out of this apartment and the door is shut, she'll fall to pieces and shake and let the fear grab her as if it means to rend her apart. but not now. not when she's somehow still clinging onto footing while this territory is completely unknown.
one breath in, and then out. steady. of course she knows about that pain - bleeding from wounds she can't sew, though she desperately wishes she could. Emily doesn't have Nishitani's same bloodlust - those people are two worlds away, and who's to say that he'll ever see them again. someone new appearing, stirring up the thoughts in his head...that's different.]
If he changes with freedom, then so he does. He'll be free, and that's more important.
[some part of her stirs, and whispers Lisa into her ear, guilt pricking her with its familiar needles. the idea of changing so completely you lose yourself, and then it's Goro telling her just wanna be myself again, even as he doesn't know what that self is.]
The paramount fact is that he doesn't have to bear that pain alone. Whether it comes from his past, from changing, from growth...he's not going to have to endure it alone.
[she'd promised, with the sakazuki cup. swore responsibility, as if his blood was her and Izo's own. promised to him in privacy, that she would be there when he decided what he wanted. promised herself, when they had been sitting in that apartment and barely having survived the Lake Spirit's wrath, that she would try and stay.]
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one breath in, and then out. steady. of course she knows about that pain - bleeding from wounds she can't sew, though she desperately wishes she could. Emily doesn't have Nishitani's same bloodlust - those people are two worlds away, and who's to say that he'll ever see them again. someone new appearing, stirring up the thoughts in his head...that's different.]
If he changes with freedom, then so he does. He'll be free, and that's more important.
[some part of her stirs, and whispers Lisa into her ear, guilt pricking her with its familiar needles. the idea of changing so completely you lose yourself, and then it's Goro telling her just wanna be myself again, even as he doesn't know what that self is.]
The paramount fact is that he doesn't have to bear that pain alone. Whether it comes from his past, from changing, from growth...he's not going to have to endure it alone.
[she'd promised, with the sakazuki cup. swore responsibility, as if his blood was her and Izo's own. promised to him in privacy, that she would be there when he decided what he wanted. promised herself, when they had been sitting in that apartment and barely having survived the Lake Spirit's wrath, that she would try and stay.]