[ He hasn't told anyone else—not even his closest friend (though, honestly, Xingqiu knows him well enough that he's probably guessed)—what he agreed to the clan for. And there is indeed another element to his request, but this is the selfish half. Maybe he shouldn't admit it since everyone seems bent on protecting what they've contracted with the clan leaders ... but it comes out anyway. He's really never been one for secrets. ]
Not to cure it, since that could change who I am, but the power to control it. [ he closes his eyes for a second, ] It's difficult, having a body that's bent on going against you.
[ It's not something he lingers on every day. Looking for the silver linings, considering it a journey, a learning experience, a way to better himself—but it's a constant struggle. He opens his eyes again, glancing back to Natori. ]
But it does have its benefits. I'm probably considered one of the strongest exorcists in Liyue, if not the strongest, because of it. I'm very good at my job. My clan's happy, too. I'll inherit, and we'll be secure for a long time.
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[ He hasn't told anyone else—not even his closest friend (though, honestly, Xingqiu knows him well enough that he's probably guessed)—what he agreed to the clan for. And there is indeed another element to his request, but this is the selfish half. Maybe he shouldn't admit it since everyone seems bent on protecting what they've contracted with the clan leaders ... but it comes out anyway. He's really never been one for secrets. ]
Not to cure it, since that could change who I am, but the power to control it. [ he closes his eyes for a second, ] It's difficult, having a body that's bent on going against you.
[ It's not something he lingers on every day. Looking for the silver linings, considering it a journey, a learning experience, a way to better himself—but it's a constant struggle. He opens his eyes again, glancing back to Natori. ]
But it does have its benefits. I'm probably considered one of the strongest exorcists in Liyue, if not the strongest, because of it. I'm very good at my job. My clan's happy, too. I'll inherit, and we'll be secure for a long time.